i have been so excited to finally find some time to get back on this blog & to try and document some of what’s been going on in my world since,,,well, february. BUT ! i was not too motivated through my pregnancy to write much,,, and i spent a lot of time contemplating my parenting and raising of people, anticipating a new baby, and trying to just get through the tail end of pregnancy. i listened to lectures about parenting & to just ONE regina spektor song (samson) over & over before we welcomed out third baby into the world. i need to start writing about our life now, now. so instead of putting a ton of pressure on myself, i just started picking pictures out from the past couple months and plan to write schmite about it all below. and i HOPE to keep on it, & please excuse my new mom brain again again.
We wrapped up may by splashing in the water & spending AS MUCH TIME AS POSSIBLE outside after what literally WAS the worst winter in our world. it was just will, elle & me most days and looking back, it was a nice time to have albeit feeling miserable as i was nine months pregnant,,, and with my third. way way weirder than the first or second pregnancy for me…
one thing, in particular, helped me “get through” that tail end of pregnancy : watching one of my best friends ever, have her first baby. maxim michael was born on may 13th & watching stephanie & mike welcome their little bundle into the world really took my mind off my own wait. he is a darling baby & it is so fun to be “in” this baby season with my tight friend. we constantly compare her son to mine, even though i have a baby so close in age to maxim, i find that little maxim seems to be much more like my boy than either of my girls,,,or maybe it’s just natural stereotyping, but it is what it is. this is what he looked like back in mid may…
later that week, my boy finished his very first year of pre-school up. there were lots of nighttime tears for me during this week. not only was i wishing and terrified that i was starting labor, but i was facing the end of something that so concretely showed me that they do grow up. and fast. here is a picture of will on his very first day of pre school. and here he is on his last. not only was it hard to believe that all that time had passed and that we (mutually) learned the confidence we would unveil through this first year of school. i feel that william was introduced to the school environment just perfectly for him, and for me. his teachers were the best people ever & it was such a wonderful experience that i was devastated to learn that the school’s budget cuts nixed his teacher & as it was all so sudden, i felt a huge sense of loss,,, more than just because his FIRST year was over, but because it felt over SO much more abruptly than just end-of-the-year party ending. we will miss mrs. mcdonald very very very very very very verrrry much. i totally expected that i would have this baby a week early. after talking with my doctor (she who delivered both will & elle) i was eager for the 23rd to come. it would be one week early, a 23 like will (& matt), a friday like elle, and i was SURE i was in labor for days before the 23rd anyway. when i had seen my doctor before this date, she gave me the option to be induced anytime within my 39th week. it was a challenging thing to handle..one one hand i could have my baby like “now” and feel better,,,and on the other hand, what was one week and i was sure i was going to have my baby way before her due date (may 30th) anyway…
i took this picture from stephanie’s entryway to visit maxim on his 6th day of life. i thought i looked cool even though it just took me 18 minutes to figure out how to pay for my electronically metered parking spot.
we got through that entire week without me going into labor & i even got to celebrate with some of will’s friends from school at a nearby park. we went on a walk after the fun & i left in a hurry cause i was in labor !!! but — i wasn’t !!! in fact, later that day my mom came over to watch my kiddos so matt & i could go on one last date, because i was surly having my baby the NEXT day,,, so he & i went out in royal oak to some old stomping grounds & i continued to be SO funny (or at least i thought so)…that night my hips went out over & over and i was POSITIVE i was in labor. this thing happened at 1am and i thought to myself “ok, well that feeling just felt like labor start. so i will have my baby in the next 6 hours.” then i went to sleep…the next day happened & after dinner at a mexican restaurant i joined my friend amy at yet another paining without the darn twist! on my way i was sure i was crowning and if i wasn’t ,,, i was sure i was super funny.
to make matter worse, they were painting a golf scene that i wasn’t into so i painted ANOTHER jaime original. i call this one ‘push the baby out now’. we spent every evening with our neighbors because i was in labor every day for the past 6 days so it was likely that i could ONLY possibly be in labor for one more day… the kids were so lucky to get all that time together & matt and i were so lucky to have all that support. thank youuuuuuu….. screw it. i wasn’t in labor. sure– i’ll go to friendship park as long as its not as chaotic as that creepy park in florida where your kids are instantly LOST the second you get to the playground. thank god this one likes to swing. and while i plan to write out the birth story and how it all came to be,,,here is humorous picture of me that i was hoping would just look “nice” ,,, but the toilet paper in the background really takes away from how pleasantly 39 weeks and 6 days pregnant i was. matt & i were eager to meet our new baby but we also knew it would be harder after the baby was born, so we just kept the conversations light and joked around a lot as we faced going to the hospital. from the hospital, i was thrilled yet fearful of what having our third baby would do to our family. i was wondering how the kids would handle it, as well as me nursing or pumping, and the fact that the attention would be spread just that much thinner. most my concerns revolved around elle. typical. we facetimed and i cried — probably mostly post partum tears because not one ounce of me feels torn up over those days as i reflect on them now. this new baby has made our world a zillion times better & i look forward to writing more about that too. me & little d just a few hours after we met ! my mom came up as soon as matt got back home to take over our other shark bites and she thought that delila looked like me as a newborn. i was on a “i just had a baby” high HIGH and felt amazing that whole day. while each of my kids birthdays are crazy special to me, they are all for different reasons and this was was the reason: MOST FUN. i amazed myself & am still SO proud of how this baby came to be & i am also proud of the sweet little person she is already.
my mom literally stepped into our world in every NEEDED way possible. she watched the older kids while i had delila, she cleaned my entire house, did ALL my laundry, put it away, filled my kitchen with meals & salads, filled my pantry & refrigerator, made freezer meals, showed up spontaneously days after D was born with caffeine-free teas & starbucks sandwiches (my favorite!!), played with the kids so i could care for delila, everything!!,, she did everything. i barely thanked her to her face but i thanked her to GOD every day during that vulnerable time!
the kids coming up…
this was really a big deal to me,,, after having my second back in 2012, i was eager to film williams arrival to the hospital so i could look back at those first few moments i know he will never remember. right when matt had texted me that he & will were on their way to meet elle, i got everything ready. just as i hit record on my rigged placement for my camera to capture his reaction to her, my doctor came in and it was just seconds before will & matt! the whole thing was a flop — &&& !!! THIS TIME, the newborn photographer came in just seconds before matt, will & elle came to meet delila,, scrambling, i rushed her OUT and got a cute little video that i didn’t post here but here are a few very sporadic photos that i took & i ADORE them!
even though matt looks like he’s in a trance here, i love this one.
little delila has been the sweeeeeetest addition to our family yet ! she is so calm & even when she does get hungry or tired, it’s just moderate “complaining” as we call it. she is such a joy it is making me a crazy person who feels like she could have 10 kids if they were all like her !!
william is more HANDS ON than elle, but elle is constantly copying whatever delila’s doing. its been charming to watch each of them with her. william is naturally my little helper & he is also himself; always trying to keep the peace & make sure everyone is comfortable and happy. elle would sit on the couch for an hour to hold delila during a couple tv shows and it was simply precious. there was one night where elle was half laying next to d, and she was kind of petting her as they rested. elle was getting tired and as she’d fall asleep she stun herself back awake into “babysitter mode” and pet delila a few times more as to wake herself back up. i couldn’t leave them to grab a camera but that moment was one of the sweetest and surest moments for me. it made me feel SO complete with delila’s arrival.
below is where will probably gave delila her first virus,,,awwwww ! within 1 week of her being home, we caught some awful cold which surfaced as croup for will & elle. thankfully delila was more resilient to the virus from breastfeeding(assumed by my doctors). still, a sick newborn was horrifying and ruined over a week of our lives. i don’t handle sick children well (emotional disaster demon hawk mother style), and it was just a mess over here.
I’m continually amazed at seeing this loving side of elle. she cuddles right up to delila no matter where she is. if I’m nursing in bed, elle snuggles around delila like a twin and she smirks with her mouth shut,,,its the cutest happy place I’ve never seen elle before.
it has been thrilling & relieving to see how well the other two have adjusted to delila’s homecoming. i uploaded these pictures a bit out of order & i probably don’t have enough time to put them in proper order right now — this post has taken me
a week two weeks to come up with already ! anyway– more photos!!! :
looking back, i am not sure why i went to the grocery store, but once i was actually left alone with the three kids, i decided to was a good idea. william pushed the mini cart & elle chased him. i laughed at how ridiculous it all was and we got through a hundred dollar shopping spree at trader joes. not bad!!
elle does whatever delila does… if she’s laying on the ground, elle lays beside her. and takes her pacifier.
at 12 days old, my good friend Anne photographed me & the kids. her photos melt me & I’m thrilled that i was able to have her come photograph us. i totally recommend her!! below is one she snapped with my phone so i could have a pic from that day!!
drowsy D was awake for that single photo day, and for her first doctors appointment but she really didn’t “wake up” until july. she established the nickname “drowsy D” and is still very attuned to her label.
little D has been racking up the LB & is already really snug in the newborn diapers. i am obsessed with her chunky thighs & butt.
on williams 4th birthday we got up & went out for donuts after having some fruit at home. this is what having three looks like outside the donut shop. the hardest part was getting in & out of that tiny donut shop entryway with the stroller.
william has been wonderful as usual. he is extremely strong now and is so helpful with everything & he “can do it all by himself” which is so nice. i fear the day he won’t hold my hand but he is the type who will always make sure my heart is full. he is the most empathetic person & i am just so grateful for him. [side story:the other day he was not wanting to share a toy with elle and he looked at her & said, “i know you are feeling sad about this elle.” Then he looked up at me & started to tear up! He came in for some crying and hugs then went back to playing,,,yeah–he’s THAT empathetic! elle didn’t care much-ha!] ,,, i am thrilled the girls have HIM as an older sibling & example.
every morning, william goes into my room and “checks” on delila. he has mastered tip toeing & whispering,,but he still usually wakes her up because he says “she wasn’t sleeping, she was playing peek-a-boo”. ha!
elle has gotten wonderful at meltdowns. i applaud her tenacity as well as her immeasurable endurance when it comes to full blown affliction. she even gags & gets popped blood vessels on her neck ! now THATS determination !!! she definitely is 2 !
will thought that the b day hats from dollar tree looked “really great” and that it was also going to be nice to look back on them sitting on the counter in the bathroom. so — viola!
matt & i have definitely found it challenging trying to manage all three, at times. thankfully, elle has become a bit of a daddys girl. it’s helped me out tremendously & feels much more balanced since she screams at matt & i equally now.
SO much has happened between then & now,,, but my main goal was to GET THIS THANG (re)STARTED !!! SO ! here we are–well, here we have been !
be back soon,,,
i HOPE !